First, an update. The deployment plans have changed. Take my advice, focus on the silver lining.
Worry not, this is what we have prepared for - what we all have prepared for. Step one, basic training. Davin was gone from January to March and I talked to him five times for less than five minutes each time. I read the letters that were sent to me for sentiment alone, the details were not important - I found myself scanning the letters for "I love you", "I am okay", "I miss you." It was only after he was home I was able to stomach the detail of what he went through. This prepared me for the times where I may not know where he is our what he is doing. It helped me to build trust in the army, in our relationship, and in myself.
WE. That is the most important part. A few years ago, we made a decision together, as a family, to join the army. I was incredibly resistant at first. I distinctly remember saying, "but you have a family." Davin replied, "so do most soldiers. i want to do it for you and for emma. i want to fight to protect and defend you and every other family. i need to do this." I have to admit, from the time I've known him, he has wanted to be in the military. I always assumed that it was a desire to actually become maverick - now I realize it is about something bigger.
Don't get me wrong, I frequently don't understand the army or how it works. I get very frustrated at some of the oddities of it all. But, very subtly, in the best way they can, I have been prepared for what lies ahead. I know not every soldier or soldier's family has, but hopefully we will move towards it. In the same way, hopefully we will be supported when he is home safe to us.
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